All Of My Tomorrow’s

Today’s prompt from the Daily post: What keeps you awake at night?

 

All of my tomorrow’s keep me awake at night.  I like awake and wonder about things no matter how much I want sleep.  I toss and turn and turn again till I may as well remake the bed.  I’ve torn off all the covers with the crap inside my head.  You see, this is where I sleep but it is too where I dream.  It’s where I do all my major planning for all I wish and all I want.  Seem’s this time I need to figure a different way to use the time I’m supposed to sleep.  Sure, the time, I use wisely but I think I will set aside another time.  A time that I can dream awake and wish my dreams come true.  There’s one thing I no longer do.  I know longer think about you.

Top 25 Songs to Listen to When Your Feeling Down

Today’s prompt from The Daily Post:  When your feeling down, what songs do you want to hear to cheer you up?

Music makes the world go round……..  I don’t know about the rest of you but if I am in a certain mood there is certain music I do not care to hear at that time.  Music may also determine my mood.  If I sit in my bedroom and listen to “Lonesome Me” all day long, I am more than likely going to be depressed as h#)) for the rest of the day!  Music without a doubt can alter your mood or state of mind.

So, what do I listen to when I am feeling blue?  Here is my list of top songs sure to cheer me up and pick me up!  Who knows?  I may even pull a Tom Cruise in my own living room floor.  Once I get started, I might even pull a Tom Cruise in YOUR living room floor!  Never can tell………..

  1. Old Time Rock n Roll …………………………………………………… Bob Segar
  2. Wild Thing………………………………………………………………….. Tone Loc
  3. Baby Got Back…………………………………………………………..Sir Mix Alot
  4. You Shook Me All Night Long……………………………………………..AC/DC
  5. Twist and Shout………………………………………………..The Isley Brothers
  6. The Twist…………………………………………………………….Chubby Checker
  7. I Saw Her Standing There……………………………………………..The Beatles
  8. Don’t Stop Till You Get Enough………………………………..Michael Jackson
  9. Ice Ice Baby…………………………………………………………………Vanilla Ice
  10. Stayin’ Alive……………………………………………………………….The Bee Gees
  11. Apple Bottom Jeans……………………………………………………………Flo Rida
  12. Crazy In Love……………………………………………………….Beyonce w/ Jay Z
  13. Bounce……………………………………………………………………………….Jay Z
  14. Save a Horse Ride A Cowboy………………………………………………Big n Rich
  15. Bust A Move………………………………………………………………….Young M.C.
  16. Get The Party Started……………………………………………………………….Pink
  17. Girls Just Wanna Have Fun………………………………………….Cyndee Lauper
  18. In Da Club………………………………………………………………………….50 Cent
  19. Golddigger…………………………………………………Kanye West ft Jamie Foxx
  20. It’s Getting Hot In Here…………………………………………………………….Nelly
  21. Slow Motion………………………………………………………………………Juvenile
  22. Great Balls of Fire……………………………………………………..Jerry Lee Lewis
  23. Jail House Rock…………………………………………………………….Elvis Presley
  24. Push It ……………………………………………………………………….Salt n Pepper
  25. Whatever You Like……………………………………………………………………..T.I.

I think my whole mood has changed just blogging about the songs.  Well people, that’s my list…..  What are some of your’s?  Comment back and share!

………………. keep on with the force don’t stop, dont stop till you get enough …. touch me and i fell on fire…………………

It’s Saturday night!  I think I am hitting to town tonight people! Have a safe, happy, and healthy weekend!!

Keep on blogging!!

How To Recognize Signs of Emotional Abuse?

The unbalanced emotions you feel can take place so gradually that emotional abuse often goes unnoticed.  Unless you have been a victim of emotional abuse yourself, you will not recognize in your friends or loved ones relationships.   Psychological Abuse goes both ways.  A man may experience emotional abuse as can a female.

How do you know if you are being emotionally abused?

  1. Are you ridiculed for spending time with your family and friends?
  2. Continues to hurt you ESPECIALLY when your down?
  3. If your loved one seems full of energy when you are fighting but it exhausts you, you are a victim.
  4. Are you ridiculed and insulted then told you can’t take a joke?
  5. Does your loved one put on a friendly face?  Well liked by the outside world?
  6. Are your words twisted then used against you?
  7. Ridicules your beliefs, religion, race, heritage, or class?
  8. Criticizes, call you names, yell at you?
  9. Humiliates you in private and in public?
  10. Ever hit or pushed you even “accidentally?”
  11. Left you stranded?
  12. Abuse something you love:  A pet, your child, an object?
  13. Harass you about imagined affairs?
  14. Threatens to leave or throw you out?
  15. Try to control your decisions, money, the way your wear your hair, or makeup?
  16. Compliments you enough to keep you happy, yet criticizes you enough to keep you down?
  17. Questions your every move or motive, somehow questioning your competence?
  18. Makes you feel like you can’t win?  Damned if you do, damned if you don’t?
  19. Tries to convince you he/she is right and you are wrong?
  20. Incites you into a rage as proof you are to blame?
  21. Sex is demanded or expected regardless of how you feel?

Your situation is CRITICAL if you are always walking on eggshells, express your opinions less often, you feel vulnerable and insecure, trapped and powerless, your afraid of your partner, and has hit you one time.

Talk to someone you trust.  Talk to Clergy, call your local battered women’s shelter, educate yourself, and seek professional help.  Emotional Abuse often leads to battery.  DON’T LET IT ESCALATE!

Click Here for Domestic Violence Information (American Bar Association)

What’s The Most Trouble You Have Ever Been In?

Today’s prompt from The Daily Post:  What’s The Most Trouble You Have Ever Been In?

Oh my God.  Are you for real?  Which time?   My mom reads my posts.  Not to mention my sweet, sweet sister who has not ever been in any trouble.  I was the rebellious child.

Thinking back to my childhood years, envisioning several minor yet, noble incidents like the time I whipped that kid in the neighborhood for calling my baby brother a name.  Then, there was the time that I got caught sneaking out.  That doesn’t include all the countless times that I snuck out and didn’t get caught.  Andrea Schmoller and I had made so many prank phone calls one day that her dad’s phone was cut off just until he came home though and could talk to the phone company.  There was this other time that was really bad.  The terrible, horrible, notebook incident that caused my mom to go into labor with my baby brother Matt. In my mind, I am seeing the event.  The one I am trying to avoid……….

I am really very ashamed still to this day and I am 41 years old.  I did most of my growing up in Lilburn, Georgia.  When we first moved there from Alabama, my parents rented a house while they had one built.  We finally moved into our new home.  The house was inside Cambridge Farms Subdivision.  It was a stuffy neighborhood at first.  You know the kind where you didn’t step in another person’s yard because your going to hurt the grass or something.  I don’t know.  My mom and dad(step-dad) were married in the new home.  The house was large.  It was beautiful.  To my mom, the house signified her own accomplishments.  My mom is the best role model a girl could have had growing up.  I am proud of her.

This particular summer I had to go to summer school.  I would not finish in time to begin our family vacation.  Everyone was on their way to Hilton Head, South Carolina.  I would have to stay behind and finish summer school.  Afterwards, I would fly to Hilton Head to meet up with the rest of the family.  My dads parents were also in Hilton Head it was to be the first time that we met them.  They were from New York.  They were to come back to Lilburn with us to see the new house.

The day my family left my parents were going to take me over to a friend’s house where I would stay until summer school was complete.  My dad had taken great pains to be sure the windows of the house were locked and secured.  He even placed chairs under the door knobs for extra protection.  Having already schemed a plan with Karen and Leigh I told my parents that I had forgotten something inside the house as we were backing out of the driveway.  So my dad pulled back up and handed me the house key.  I went inside and unlocked the back door and removed the chair from under the knob.  Picked up my bag I had pretended to forget and out the door I went.

It was only supposed to be a small party with 3 girls and 3 guys.  Leigh and her boyfriend decided to go get some Boone’s Farm.  Unbeknownst to me, they also went by Green’s Corners which was the hangout spot and put the word out that there was a party.  Back at the house, I began to wonder where they had gotten off too.  I looked out the front door and my jaw dropped to the floor.  The longest line of cars that I had ever seen in my entire life that was not part of a funeral procession was coming down the road in our nice new neighborhood.  People started filling into our home.  I didn’t know what to do.  I was 16 years old.  There were people from 4 of the surrounding schools 2 of the schools were major rivals.  There were 150 people in my parents new home.  Things were out of control so bad that at one point I started to call my parents.  The police came out twice.  The third time everyone was asked to leave.  The house was destroyed.  I feared for my life.

My friends and I tried to fix what we were able.  We nailed down the carpet back to the stairs that led to the upper level.  We were able to find the covers to the fire alarm people had taken off the walls.  I had tried to find them all night.  You could hear them going off all through the house that night.  We cleaned the white carpet.  You can’t clean the cigarette burns from the carpet.  Nor, did we have enough know how to fix the hole in the wall in my sisters bedroom.  We placed a picture over the hole.

Having flown to Hilton Head Airport, I caught a cab to the beach house.  The trip to Hilton Head was the longest trip.  The cab ride alone seemed to go on forever.  I didn’t have the guts to tell them there………..  and this is where I will end this post.  I think I will call my mom and thank her for allowing me to live……   : )

 

Living With My “isms”

What is an “ism?”  It is some minor little something that tends to bug you more than it does others.  Simply put, a pet peeve.  We all have them.  For instance, I can not stand a man with smooth hands.  I am talking like smooth as a baby’s bottom kind of smooth.  I went out with a man once whose hands were so soft.  It really was a major turn off for me.  One of my MAJOR “isms” is someone had best not touch the bottom of their foot to the bottom of mine.  This causes extreme chaos and possible catastrophe.  I will kick and scream and cause bodily harm because it makes my skin crawl.  Have you ever touched your finger to another persons?  You take your free hand and feel the two fingers pressed together.  They feel dead and numb.  That is what I feel when a person touches the bottom of their foot to mine.  So , please!  Do not do this to me!  Do not do it to yourself.  It could be hazardous to your health.  Maybe I am just weird.  I do not know.  To me, my “isms” are very scary and real.  I have often wondered if I just stuck the bottom of my foot tot the bottom of someone else’s and just held it there no matter how it felt.  Just “man-up” and hold them there as long as I can probably gritting my teeth together.  I imagine that I would also break out into a sweat.  I would have to close my eyes and just ggggrrrrrrrr.  You know what I mean?  Could I then cure myself from my own “ism?”  The thought terrifies me.  I am uncertain whether I could take it long enough.  I may try one day…… but I probably will not start today!  : )

I hope you all have had a great day!

Self Pep Talks of a Single Mom

Funny how it wasn’t until I had kids of my own that I began to understand my parents.  I used to think they were the most crazy, insane, inhuman people who I had ever known.  In a way, I suppose they were because when it comes to your kids you will be what ever or who ever you have to be to protect them.  I know this now.  Looking back, I understand the decisions my parents made with me– the ones that I just did not, could not, and would not fathom back then.  I see their actions with a whole new vision and I think to myself, “Wow!  Now that is love.”  Some of the choices they made ha d to be the hardest things a parent could ever have to do.  Yet, they did it.  No matter how bad it hurt them or much they did not want to.  They did it for me.  That is unconditional love.  That is what my own kids will look back upon when they have kids of their own.  They, too, will reflect back and say, “She love me more than I ever realized.”  Yes, one day they will look back the same as I did.  That is, if I do not end up killing them myself first.  You pay for your raising do not ever think that you don’t or won’t.  You do.  You will.  But, you know what?  This is how we develop character.  Life has its funny little ways of working things out.  Kids are a blessing.  Mine is well worth every minute and every second of every day.  There is no doubt in my mind of that!  I think I will pour a glass of wine and toast to every future gray hair they create for me.

Random Thoughts on Life

Life can be so crazy sometimes.  You never know where it may lead or what is going to happen next.  Yet, we take the good, the bad, and the ugly and keep on keeping on.  At times,  it is insanity.  Hell, sometimes I am insane.  I remember when I was 18 years old.  I was sweet, nice, and polite,  I did not drink, curse, smoke, and had never taken any drugs.  What happened?  Life happened.  I never dreamed the firs person to call me a fucking whore would end up being my husband!  What did I do?  I sat down and cried.  I was so hurt not to mention stunned.  I had to get tough.  Sometimes, we all have to.  You let that punk bastard call me that same name today and see what I do for him.  He knows better.  Our marriage ended up in divorce–thank God.  That was in 1998 and I always said that I would never get married again.  I went ape wild for a while but now that I am older and I think of the future.  I get scared.  I get scared at the thought of being alone.  When my kids grow up and leave home to star lives of their own.  I will be alone.  I do not wan to be.  But, I am not going to settle for less than I deserve.  Because somewhere lost inside my soul is that same 18-year-old girl.  I am still the same person but a lot wiser and a lot less naive.  I want to love and be loved and I only want the best a person has to offer.  I am sick of all those bottom feeders.  I want it all and after some of the craziness life has thrown my way –I deserve it damn it.  I do.  Everyone does.  Life is what we make it.  We have all been told at one time or another not to sit back and let life happen.  You have to make it happen.  That is so true.  You only live this life once.  So make life happen and live out loud.  No one is promised tomorrow and you can never be sure what will happen next.  So live your life to the fullest.  Trust me.  I learned all of this the hard way but it is never to late.  Love your life and live it!

10 Ways To Save Money

  • Cut your cable bill.   Do you really need that many channels anyway?
  • Reduce your bills.  Ask your service providers if they have bundled services.  The best way is to only have the things you really need.
  • Don’t impulse shop.  Never go shopping when you are depressed.  Never go to the grocery store hungry.  Make a list of the things you want and wait 2 weeks.  If you still want something on your list than budget for it.
  • Work for yourself.  Find something you really like to do and figure out a way to make money at it.
  • Wear your clothes longer.  Easier said than done for me.  Salvation Army is wonderful.  I am lucky because I live in Scottsboro, Alabama which is home to Unclaimed Baggage!
  • Cut down on your food costs.  Make meals at home.  Do not go out to eat.
  • Cut back on cell phone usage.  Most people have internet either at work or home use it instead.
  • Put it in the bank.  Do you have at least 3 months income saved in case of emergency?  If not stop spending and save.
  • Don’t feed bad habits.  Especially gambling and drinking.  Do you smoke?  I figured out my cigarette bill and I could have taken my kids to Disneyland at least once per year already which would have been one item marked off my bucket list!
  • Use condoms.  Kids are expensive…….  Thats so awful.  I love my children they are a gift from God!  If you are young and single, you may want to think about this one!!

Anyone have anything to add?

Well That’s Just Freaking Great….!!

A single mother with 3 beautiful children, 41 years old, back in college AGAIN with only 2 years to complete, I have climbed mountains and ran over one ex to get where I am today.  Yet, surfing the net tonight, contemplating even more issues in my somewhat crazy life.  I discover that the world is going to end December 31, 2012 and unless your rich and can afford VIVOS- underground luxury shelters to sit out the apparent Apocalypse that none of my issues really even matter because we are all going to die anyway!  Well that’s just freaking great!!  Apparently, somewhere I have missed some important information here because when did all this come about?  Who decided that the world will be ending in 2012?  That’s when I will finally be finishing what I should have completed years ago.  Isn’t that ironic as Alanis Morrisette sings?  That just put a whole new spin on all my mind drama!  Can someone please feel me in?