Life can be so crazy sometimes. You never know where it may lead or what is going to happen next. Yet, we take the good, the bad, and the ugly and keep on keeping on. At times, it is insanity. Hell, sometimes I am insane. I remember when I was 18 years old. I was sweet, nice, and polite, I did not drink, curse, smoke, and had never taken any drugs. What happened? Life happened. I never dreamed the firs person to call me a fucking whore would end up being my husband! What did I do? I sat down and cried. I was so hurt not to mention stunned. I had to get tough. Sometimes, we all have to. You let that punk bastard call me that same name today and see what I do for him. He knows better. Our marriage ended up in divorce–thank God. That was in 1998 and I always said that I would never get married again. I went ape wild for a while but now that I am older and I think of the future. I get scared. I get scared at the thought of being alone. When my kids grow up and leave home to star lives of their own. I will be alone. I do not wan to be. But, I am not going to settle for less than I deserve. Because somewhere lost inside my soul is that same 18-year-old girl. I am still the same person but a lot wiser and a lot less naive. I want to love and be loved and I only want the best a person has to offer. I am sick of all those bottom feeders. I want it all and after some of the craziness life has thrown my way –I deserve it damn it. I do. Everyone does. Life is what we make it. We have all been told at one time or another not to sit back and let life happen. You have to make it happen. That is so true. You only live this life once. So make life happen and live out loud. No one is promised tomorrow and you can never be sure what will happen next. So live your life to the fullest. Trust me. I learned all of this the hard way but it is never to late. Love your life and live it!